Feel GOOD Now!!
August 29, 2008 · Print This Article
Today is a day that I wish I had a magic wand to wave around to improve things in my environment. Alas, I have a magic wand, it is just harder to pick up and use because I have to decide to feel good to use it. My magic wand is a process called ‘Find a Better Feeling Thought’.
Last night my Aga went cold. An Aga is an awesome huge cooking God (I don’t know what else to call it, I LOVE it!) that stays hot all the time and heats all my water and keeps my house nice and toasty-feeling. Honestly, I am blessed to be able to cook straight away, I have completely forgotten how to preheat an oven!
It turns out I’ve run out of oil, or maybe I haven’t. My Aga is one of my huge teachers, it replaced my mother. My mother taught me that when things went bad it was because God didn’t love her. I learned that teaching really well and I was able to let go of that with most everything apart from not having oil for my Aga. I kid you not, running out of oil used to be a big fat drama for me! I literally felt that God had removed his love from me and I even felt like the Universe was pooing on me. It is amazing how bad I allowed myself to feel over it!
The reason I say maybe I haven’t run out of oil, even though it looks like I have, is because the last time this scenario played out I went out and checked the oil gauge, my ex husband had also checked it and it was definitely out. I came back into the house and I purposefully found better feeling thoughts. Now I’d been working on this issue for years, yes, it is years! Like I said, I cleaned up my vibration with lots and lots of other things, but running out of oil was the the Rollover Jackpot of Feeling Bad. I must say that when I had gone out there last time I wasn’t feeling particularly bad, I also wasn’t skipping while singing and having robins plait my hair. I had accepted my fate and I did feel a bit weary. My weariness seemed to be set in stone once I had gone out and seen that there was no oil.
On the way back into the house I already started thinking of things that would make me feel better. I thought I could go back to bed with a good book for a while. That would be a comforting thing to do. Just thinking about that felt good. I got into the house and called the people that supply the oil and they scheduled a delivery. Gone are the days where I would blame them for not keeping it topped up properly or filling it soon enough. Then I continued to go about my day but looking for better feeling thoughts. I got myself into a really good place and for some reason got the inspiration to go back outside and look at the oil tank. Being the type of person who loves to follow inspiration, I went out there and looked at it. Surprise, surprise the tank was actually showing that it was half full.
Of course I questioned the whole incident in my own mind for a while. But I decided that what ever had actually transpired was all based on me changing my vibration. Was I in a bit of a funk and because of where I was, I wasn’t vibrationally aligned with seeing how much oil was there? Or was I not vibrationally aligned with having it and then when I got aligned the Universe provided it? I don’t know, and in fact I don’t really care.
What I DO care about is that it gave me proof that finding better feeling thoughts can actually change my environment for the better. It doesn’t really matter to me if my environment is changing to accommodate me or if I see things that were previously invisible to me. What I want to hold on to is that it works.
I ended up phoning the lady from the oil company back that day and telling her I had made a mistake and to cancel the delivery. She was most pleased with my call and thanked me. (Yet another thing happening for me to feel good!) She’d somehow scheduled an emergency delivery for that day. Which in itself was a miracle.
So, today I went out and saw that the tank does in fact look empty. I call the oil people and spoke with a nice man who tells me that maybe the oil tank really isn’t empty and asks have I looked inside. I have no idea how to look inside, maybe I will investigate later. But I am using his questioning as a way to feel even better. He can’t get anyone out here until Tuesday. That was the one thing that I felt bad about. Not being able to do big cooking until Tuesday did not fill me with Joy and Glee. SO, I keep going back to the thought of him not being convinced that I am out of oil. I also pulled on the really outlandish thought of going away on holiday until Tuesday. That’s not going to happen, but it feels GREAT to think about going to a Manor House hotel in the country and having all my meals prepared by a chef. I like that idea. Anyway, what’s important is that I feel loved. I know that the Divine adores me.
I’m also looking at this incident as yet another opportunity to clean up my vibration even more on thism and it’s giving me practice on finding better feeling thoughts.
Each and every obstacle and challenge that comes into your life is an opportunity for you to find ways to feel better. The whole point of being here is to have focused feelings of love, joy and happiness. Look at each challenge as an opportunity for you to feel better, and know that feeling better is how you get into alignment with everything it is that you really want. That is one concept that really keeps me going when I am struggling with letting go of the feeling bad. I think of what it is I really want, like a log house in Canada, and I tell myself that to get that I have to get over this feeling bad. I know that every challenge I have is a way to add energy to what I want by my turning it around to something I can feel good about.
That may sound flippant and that I find it easy to do. I don’t mean it that way at all. Not so very long ago Julian and I had a huge argument where I just couldn’t stop feeling bad. I’ve been playing at the “finding better feeling thoughts game” enough that I get a strong inner voice that coaxes me in the right direction, but sometimes I feel so bad that I want to stay in that place. That night I just kept digging myself into a bigger and deeper hole of bad feelings and thoughts and before I knew it Julian was saying he had enough, as in enough of our relationship. Now that was something that left me feeling even worse than I had before. I’d hit the bottom of that hole I had been digging.
Luckily I have worked with enough people and relationships to know that people make decisions while feeling bad that they wouldn’t make in their normal state of alignment. I’ve helped quite a few couples get back together and have greatly improved relationships on the basis that things were said and decisions were made when both were not a vibrational match to Divine’s LOVE. Yes, better feeling thoughts in the midst of a break up were much harder to find than they were for running out of oil!
Yet I learned three valuable lessons: 1) I from then on wanted to listen to my Inner Guidance about finding better feeling thoughts, 2) I preferred my contrast and lessons taking place with smaller things, like running out of oil, 3) That my theory that you can decide on what you WANT, rather than what is really works.
It took me a good couple of days to get over the emotions of that argument and Julian is still here. Our relationship is better than ever. I think a lot of that is down to the fact that I want to stay at a higher vibrational level. Something deep inside of me has clicked onto how feeling good actually feels good, and I get a lot more out of it than feeling bad.
My past is full of contrast. I’ve only read books about contrast that was worse than the contrast I had for 25 years. It doesn’t matter what that contrast was, what matters is that I learned extremely well how to feel bad; really, really bad. But things are different now, they have been better for a very long time. What wasn’t different was how I felt about myself and my life. What I’ve been working on along my spiritual path is to improve how I feel and in turn that improves how I see things.
I’m telling you this because it is MY process and I figure that if I can do it then so can you. This isn’t a competition of who had it worse, or who feels the worst. This is an opportunity to feel better than you ever did before.
Today I got yet another opportunity to feel good! How good are you willing to feel? I want for you more than anything to be able to choose feeling good, to fully grasp the concept of finding a better feeling thought and expanding on it.
“Life is supposed to be fun” Abraham - Channeled by Esther Hicks
With Love and Appreciation,
Angela Bear
www.angelabear.com
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Angela! Angel, soooooo nice to read such a personal, confiding post! It’s so human, so easy to relate to, and ultimately really comforting! Yay for you!
I sent you a quick note on Facebook (Facebot, we like to call it. heh) about Matrix Energetics because while reading this post, it kept coming to mind. People who practice this (I have not yet successfully played with it, but I LOVE the possibilities it opens up!! SO FUN!) have experiences like you had with the oil gauge suddenly being half full when it was empty before, all the time! It’s really magical, kind of Alice in Wonderland stuff, and really rearranges your whole paradigm view of life and how it “works.” Anyway, like I said, I haven’t yet been able to experience it, but I believe it’ll all fall into place eventually.
Back to your lovely post: Abraham always encourages us to appreciate the contrast because it serves to remind us of what we want instead, and thus keep evolving in the direction of our desires…and I know the trick is to let the contrast serve us, and turn our attention to what we realize we really now want, rather than get stuck frowning at the contrast, but my question is…well, I don’t know quite how to say it.
I get tired sometimes, of rousing myself, of being strong and finding the gift in the difficult experience (but it IS always there, always. And it always gives me goose bumps to discover it, but still…). Sometimes i just want to say to the Universe: I renege! If I, in my nonphysical state, wrote the contract that said I would participate in this experience for my inner growth and expansion, I want to cancel! I didn’t know what I was talking about! It’s too much! : )
I know that in our non-physical state we don’t fear our human challenges because we know they are ultimately illusions; I, as an actress, don’t fret and suffer in my soul knowing that I’m about to go up on stage and play out an emotionally fraught scene…the larger part of me knows that I am going to get off the stage at some point and resume my “larger” life.
I know that the scene will help me grow as an actress, and it’s actually fun and gratifying to perform, regardless of the emotional suffering or intensity of what you experience on stage. I imagine this is how we perceive things from the non-physical. We don’t fear the suffering we may experience during our lifetime, because we know it is all part of a play, and it has the potential to always enrich.
That said, sometimes the pain is such that I just can’t believe I would have agreed that this was okay, or that it’s okay to learn in such a way. Why can’t we learn through fun and play and laughter only? Why is it that we learn so well and so deeply through pain? Why? This is the stubborn child in me. I know pain and suffering is also a choice of perspective, but…I just want to play and I want it to be easy mostly. I want all the hard stuff to go away.
hahaha. Gosh, sometimes, I just want to KNOW instead of function on faith. I want angels or God to appear and talk to me and lay things out clearly and tell me that the conclusions I’ve come to this far about the gifts I’ve found through the pain are indeed, objectively “right.” haha. I know I’m cuckoo.
I think this is the “connection” you talked about. I guess if we’re connected more of the time, we don’t get stuck in the pain of things. It’s strange to me that one day you can see a thing with so much grace, and the very next, with a heavy heart. How funny we are.
I think there was a question buried in there, but it was more of a ramble I suppose. Thank you anyway, for allowing me the (huge) space to do so. It’s a big treat for me to be able to discuss these things with people who speak the same language. : )
Big love to you, and on to reading your next blog for me!
xoxoxoxoxoxo
Vanessa
Dear Gorgeous and Amazing Vanessa and YOU Divine Co-Creator,
First lets talk about the ‘pain’. This is a hard thing for me to say and talk about because it is a concept that may be a bit foreign and it can easily perceived as I haven’t had pain in my life. I can assure you that I completely understand pain, the reality of it, to the extent of not wanting to be here in this physical world (countless times) to the depth of which most people do not experience.
When a thing happens that is painful our meaning of that thing adds to the pain and to a certain extent creates the pain. It is the value and meaning that we create for the act that happened, our present and our future.
I want to choose something that isn’t huge here for me to give as an example. So the most recent thing that caused me the most amount of pain was Julian saying he was leaving. I’ve already said on my posts that i am human and I am working on my own vibration here. It took a good two weeks for me to get over my own emotions from him saying that and he hadn’t even moved out of the house.
What I was using to hurt myself were not his words, it was what his words meant to me. For example, I went into my usual inner images of how I’d just messed up again, my parents were right no one would ever really love me. Then I would look at the future and I would image this bleak scenario devoid of Julian, all our dreams washed away.
I’m not sure what else I brought up and frankly I don’t even want to go there because it sucks. It doesn’t feel good.
Sure him saying that he was leaving was awful, but I’ve been on this path long enough to remember to stop being the actress following my cue from all the other actors and the scene and the back drop on the stage and plonk my butt in the directors seat and start taking the lead.
What I am saying is that when Julian said he was leaving I realized I had a choice. I had the choice to accept that reality or to change the reality into something different.
I’m not saying you start out with something big that you don’t believe in, but I can also say that if you do start off with something big you might have a better chance of doing it. You have to have focus and determination. You have to remember that you are the Creator of your own reality and that Source really enjoys having fun, seeing beauty and experience pleasure through you. Source turns away from pain and unpleasantness you are left there on your own and that in itself adds to the sensation and pain, because it doesn’t feel nice.
With practicing better feeling thoughts you will find it easier and easier to choose feeling good when something happens.
Be easy on yourself. It’s easy for me to choose feeling bad. I did it last week for two days when I was looking after a puppy I had sold to owners that love him so much they make some bad decisions through fear. I was beating myself up for not being aware of what his life would be like, of how stressed he would be. He was one unhappy pup. It was a great learning curve for me. I realized I still have that potential to feel bad and to blame myself.
Having good things to focus on the change my vibration feels good. It really does. I love going on the Abraham Cruises and living a lifestyle of luxury and having all my needs catered to. But I can tell you something that may surprise you, it definitely surprised me: That feeling is nothing compared to something happening that used to hurt me and now I breeze through it feeling comfortable and at ease.
It gives me such a sense of well being, strength and confidence to be able to just literally sail through a situation that used to have me in tears and going back to bed and eating pizza and ice cream. I don’t need outside things to influence a positive state of well being, I can choose it for myself.
I believe that if I can do it so can you. You are doing much better than you believe you are. Be easy on yourself, each time you feel despair or pain regardless of what you do or don’t do your emotions are sending out messages to the Universe saying, “This! Not that!”.
Why don’t you jump on board and do the same thing. With any contrast see what it is you don’t want use it as a way to see what it is that you DO WANT and tell the Universe that. Tell the Universe with all the feeling and focused energy from your place of pain and release it. Watch how magically things will unfold to accommodate you. You are a Divine Expression of Source Energy. You are here to expand the Universe. The Universe LOVES experiences good feelings through you.
Feel good, choose feeling good over any other thought! Know you are loved and guided. I am here for you. I am here for all of you! I want you to feel good. I see you feeling good and being successful!
You may well go on a course that leaps you forward. But think of how incredibly results you will have and feel by doing the work to find better feeling thoughts and intending to feel better. It is simple yet it takes making that decision. Do you want to feel bad or do you want to feel good? Do you want to add meaning to what happened in a negative way or in a way that makes you feel better and put you back in the drivers seat and in control.
You are beautiful and loved.
With Love and Appreciation,
Angela Bear
http://www.angelabear.com
Dear Angela,
My daughter told me about you and how you are helping her and she said to me that you could help me as well. I have been reading books and listening to tapes about Source Energy and I am trying very hard to feel good and not let the fear and resistance enter everyday. Since my daughter told me about you I have read your website almost everyday and the information is helping. I feel “Stuck in a Rut” and it is hard to move forward. I wrote down the affirmations that you have posted and I read them everyday. Sometimes I feel this overwhelming feeling that flows through my body and it makes my aches and pains feel not as bad and I feel more positive about life. I have been letting myself feel bad since I was a child and it is hard letting go of those feelings. Since I feel so much resistance I know that is why money and positive things aren’t coming to me. I have so much learning to do since I am so new at all this and it is hard for me to choose the right words to describe how I feel. I am so grateful that I was told about your website and that now I can practice your meditations which I have never done before. Thankyou for letting me tell you how I feel and I will continue reading your website to pick up more information to better understand about Source Energy.
Thankyou,
Jeanne
Angela, you are a woman with a truly beautiful heart! I’ll write you back! xoxoxoxo
V
Dearest Angela,
Thank you so much for our session this morning, (for everyone reading this, I had my first session with Angela this morning) I already feel a massive energy shift on subjects I’ve been struggling to deal with for some time now. I can’t begin to explain how grateful I am to have been drawn to you by law of attraction! The Universe is magical! Hooray!!
I really look forward to speaking to you next week and to reading your website everyday for inspiration on life and joy! Thanks for blessing us all with your fantastic posts, divine affirmations and soothing audio meditations!
Lots of reiki love to you Angel!
xx
Dear Co-Creators and Amazing Clients,
It is my absolute pleasure to have worked with you! You are beautiful and loved! Keep up the great work!
I love you.
Thank you.
Lots of Love and Appreciation,
Angela Bear